invaders

it has been almost a decade.finally i understand why they hated us. why we were never good enough even we were. why they gave the look. why some of us felt out of place and left out.

this was not a case of invading. we were just happened to be chosen to be placed on that spot in the whole wide world. do you think we asked for this? we were just accepting what we have been given.

I, on another case was pretty happy regardless anything what the future would be at that time. i was not feeling sad leaving my friends, i was happy to meet new ones. i did not cry when my daddy's car when through out of the gate. i waved and smiled not like the first time.i was a happy smile,a highly spirited smile.

not knowing it would be a one of my life changing,nerve wrecking experience.

unfortunately, yes it was unfortunate. it still was.

but there was sun and stars. even how heavy the downpour was, there was still light.

and i have my lights on pretty much till these days.

i love all my lights, even we were the invaders.

we were the good bacterias. we did not kill our host, we made it live.

rojak sotong

setiap kali post ni aku karang sure aku delete balik.serius xdapat the exact good words, apatah lagi sentence kan.

sebagaimana dunia di landa dengan demam bercinta dengan serigala jadian atau vampire, aku lebih facinated dengan barisan lagu untuk movie tersebut. walaupun ada yang berpendapat cewek berambut merah itu selfish dan sebagainya, things like that happen in real life. minus the vampire slash werewolf human thingy lah. so who are we to judge, we are not in their shoes. what would you do if the situation where you have to choose? exactly.

moving on, ada orang kutuk ideal date aku tidak berfaedah. bikin panas bila menambah tokok isu terhangat masa kini. please tell me something new please? tell me something i do not know. it is an individual choice. bukan aku tak nak, aku tak jumpa lagi. tak kan nak main redah je, sorry la hidup aku dah cukup miserable abis da ni.

taking a walk is not lame. staying at home is also a way of a having fun off day. sarcasm is not emotional. speaking in silence worth more than a thousand words. there is more to life la wei.

wah post rojak, but then again do i look like i care? it is my effing space right.
ciao ciao.

not sleeping nor weeping

something random with awesome coffee

you wear your bermuda shorts

i put my sneakers on

talking about random stuff, leads to a superb conversation

music on the air, we guess what band it is.

took a drive to unknown destination

and speak through silent.

perfect situation.

then...

kringgggggggggggggggg! the alarm went, argh!

stamp

she said its not pilih kasih,its a different contact.

so yeah.

i am stamping.

i like it.

i am christina yang, i am stamping my meredith grey(s). or either way.

material

hujan dan a fine frenzy adalah kombinasi yang terbaik untuk hari ini. beberapa hari yang lepas, aku berkomunikasi dengan seorang rakan yang sedang bekerja di seberang laut. kami memperkatakan tentang kekayaan membawa kebahagian. perdebatan kami mudah dan tidak rumit kerana kami bersetuju yang wang bukan segala-galanya.

memperoleh kekayaan di atas kerumitan dan masalah orang lain juga bukan jalan terbaik untuk menjadi kaya.

jangan tertipu, siapa tidak mahu hidup senang. aku juga mahu tetapi semakin lama aku hidup di muka bumi Tuhan ini aku belajar mengerti tentang banyak perkara yang lebih penting dari wang. contoh terbaik, keluarga dan sahabat. aku antara manusia yang pernah berpengalaman makan nasi dan hanya berlaukan ikan masin tetapi aku bersyukur kerana aku ada harta yang tidak boleh dibeli dengan sebarang harta yang ada dalam dunia.

tongue-tied

wonderful people.

i love thee.

no words can express my gratitude.

but i want you to know that it was awesome.

as speechless as i was, i did not expect this.

so thank you.

for this.

dream a new dream

call me lame or whatever you like. my playlist has been on the once most popular boyband on earth songs for days.while most of us out grew of it but not me. they came here about 2 years ago but unlucky me for not be able to watch them perform live right in front on my eyes. they might not be as boyishly handsome as before but i bet they performed well. i have seen many live video performance by them.

remembering those day when i was all crazy bout them since their second album release. we even did a dance performance with their song during year end party.that was the year when i started to have some guy pals. they bullied me most of the time and i was acting tough in front of them like i always do. when i felt like crying, i would run as hard as i could. my house is not that far from school so usually they never see me cry.usually.

they used to tease me and say that my favourite band do not know how to make real good music. screw you,i love them what ever you may say or do.there was this one incident where one of them called my house(we do not have cells during those days) and play one of nirvana songs.i kid you not people.they really did,but the mystery who did that remains till now.

but hey on the bright side,thanks to you people my interest in music genre widen to a whole different level. i started to listen to third eye blind, greenday, oasis, nirvana, no doubt, alanis morisette and some other cool 90s bands.90s bands are cool people. believe me.

today, i am a year older.you guys may not remember but i do.the prank you guys did on my birthday that particular year was one of the memories i cherished. i may screamed at you and hated you guys that time but it was good times thinking about it right now.

and you made me a stronger person. my own person.

wondering what happened to them now? well, "Girl" is in grad school now.i always knew you have talent in arts so good for you.we havent spoken since then but its okay. "Selebet" is an engineer i supposed. i saw "Kaz" last months and he has surprisingly grown to be a quite good looking despite his shabbiness back then. "Apek" is a married man with a child,surprisingly and working in a bank. and "SK", i pray you're in a good place beside HIM.

that was yesteryears. now we walk to the future and dream of more new dreams. because what does not kill you, makes you stronger. cheers!

goodbye rain

"Bad news never had good timing
Then the circle of your friends
Will defend the silver lining " john mayer

thanks friends.

different occasions different places different people helped to blow the rain away.

i had fun. my heart is smiling again.

more medication

shtumshush,

i jumpa fotokopi JP. muka xdala sama sangat and all tapi ada gaya macam JP dlm GG.especially gaya percakapan. dan suara.

heh.

jatuh hati aku.

hujan lebat dalam hati terus go away lah sekejap.

terus jadi taman yang penuh dengan sunflower.

kejap aje la.

out of reach la tapi. eh kalau reachable pun macam la kita pegi reach kan? haha.